Stress

Today I'm going to change up this entry. It deals deeply with a huge health issue. It's mental health mostly, but affects all parts of health.

Let's discuss something that everyone deals with every day...STRESS! 

It is a very nasty word that can hinder your weight loss goals. It can make you loss weight by having no appetite or making you gain because you eat your emotions, trying to bury them under a big plate of down home mac & cheese with the gooey warm cheese. It is like a blanket of pure love and understanding right there. 

This last week I have been hit hard and completely stressed. When something you depend on for living your life shows to be not a stable thing to rely on, it makes for a serious stress and deep concern. 

As most who know me, I live at work. I work tons of overtime and am known as a reliable person in case someone doesn't show up to work. I'll stay late and work on my days off. I like knowing that I can be counted on when things happen. 

BUT...this last week, I found out from the agency I work for that my job might be coming to an end. The contract to keep me working may not be renewed even though I have been working for the company a year and a half. I know it's not a huge amount of time, but I feel it is a good amount of time to prove I'm devoted.

So all of this last week, I've been pulling my hair out of my head as to what to do. I absolutely love my job and would like to keep it, but if the contract isn't renewed, there's nothing I can do to keep it going.

I have to admit one thing. I absolutely don't like looking for a new job. I even dislike more the interviewing part. I am so clumsy trying to remember event of 18 years experience to best answer how I did this and how it made me feel kinds of questions. Honestly, I sometimes don't remember the simplest things in life and to remember that is even harder.

I made it through and decided it is time to take my agent's suggestion on looking for a new job before the contract expires. 

I looked at the Post Office which has a crazy test to take. I give a hands up to all those Postal workers who past that test. My head hurts still trying to practice for it. All I can say is WOW!

I also submitted to Netflix. I did their video interview and was asked to come in today at 5 PM for an in-person individual interview. I'm super stoked and finally the stress filled week I had last week is slowly dissipating. 

Let's just say that last week's stress gave me an excuse to not do the things I should have. I gained 4.5 pounds. I'm back to 279. 

This week I'm looking forward to pushing past this and doing what I need to get back on track. 

Let's do this!!!!