Change

Change! Most people shiver in the sight or sound of such words being used. Change is often hard and scary. The truth about change is that in life, change is the way to grow. This is why I'm not shivering at the sound of that word: CHANGE.

Today my husband and I are starting on a new path to better our health. I have done a ton of research on Ketogenic Diet. When I say I did a ton of research, that means for the last three weeks or so, I searched all the details I can find about this diet. I searched the internet until I ended up reading the same information over and over again. 

My husband and I talked about it. We discussed what it is all about. We are very comfortable on taking the keto diet. I find it funny I'm calling it a diet when in all actual fact, it is definitely a lifestyle change that takes dedication. We decided we need this in our lives.

I weighed in at 278.6 for the first weigh-in for Keto. I can't wait to see next week weigh-in. I'm even more excited to see my husband's weigh-in next week. I want us to be alive to live life to the fullest we can. One way to do that is to get our bodies healthy. 

I have 2 recipes already to share on my cooking blog for keto. I made last night ham & turkey egg cups for this morning. I also made pepper popper fat bombs.

They both are completely delicious! I'm super excited to discover new recipes.

Choices

This last week has been amazing by way of weight loss. My choices are reflected by the loss I had.

I'm down 3.1 pounds this week. I was 281.5 last week and today I'm 278.4. 

This last week I decided I need to go back to Weight Watchers. It is where I found people who are on a journey like me that are looking on making themselves healthy and cheer each other on. It is a place where I originally went from 320 pounds down to 280 pounds. 

Just by looking at the points I am eating, made me realize how much I'm feeding myself and my husband. We need to change the portion sizes and throw in some extra salads to get our daily vegetable intake we need.

By just doing a few extra steps and making wiser choices in what we're eating, I already lost weight. I'm going to keep this going until we're both healthy and strong. 

I know this can be accomplished. This last week was definitely a win-win week. 

Goal for this week:
Go to the gym at least 2 times.

Life after

I realize that I'm not the first and definitely not going to be the last person who has been traumatized by a car accident. This week I want to discuss life after my latest car accident.

Last Monday a semi turned into my car and pulled away just before serious damage to the car and me happened. I'm still thanking my lucky stars that is wasn't anything worse than it could have been.

I've had two other car accidents before this and in no way was I traumatized like I am after this one. Those two other accidents totaled the cars and each of us: my mom, my brother, and me had injuries that still bother us today. 

I walked away from those accident without being nervous to be on the road. But this latest accident has me questioning myself on being out there driving. Short trips to even Bountiful which is about 15 minutes away from work, I had full blown anxiety attacks. I mean tears streaming down my face, body shaking fear, & heart pounding so hard that it actually feels like a heart attack. 

Yes, I'm traumatized. I have been told that I'll eventually get over it. I'm sure I will, but right in this moment, it feels like a lifetime away. 

What is worse from this all, the people I love and care about seeing me like this. I feel helpless and sometimes just want to disappear so they don't have to worry so much.

My mental health at this moment is being worked on, as I work on my physical health, too. I feel that mental health is just as or even more so important as your physical well being. You can't have one without the other is all I'm saying.