Last Monday a semi turned into my car and pulled away just before serious damage to the car and me happened. I'm still thanking my lucky stars that is wasn't anything worse than it could have been.
I've had two other car accidents before this and in no way was I traumatized like I am after this one. Those two other accidents totaled the cars and each of us: my mom, my brother, and me had injuries that still bother us today.
I walked away from those accident without being nervous to be on the road. But this latest accident has me questioning myself on being out there driving. Short trips to even Bountiful which is about 15 minutes away from work, I had full blown anxiety attacks. I mean tears streaming down my face, body shaking fear, & heart pounding so hard that it actually feels like a heart attack.
Yes, I'm traumatized. I have been told that I'll eventually get over it. I'm sure I will, but right in this moment, it feels like a lifetime away.
What is worse from this all, the people I love and care about seeing me like this. I feel helpless and sometimes just want to disappear so they don't have to worry so much.
My mental health at this moment is being worked on, as I work on my physical health, too. I feel that mental health is just as or even more so important as your physical well being. You can't have one without the other is all I'm saying.
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